1 October

I’ve been feeling a little weird today. I live in Las Vegas and today is the anniversary of a very horrible thing. I don’t want to draw attention to it because I was not directly affected. I had friends were there that were there and even lost a friend from my childhood. But, I don’t want to make this about me in any way. I want us to be able to heal and music is what helps me heal . Like most hard times in life, music has helped me and my city try and work through this tragedy. So today I wanted to share some music that I listen to when I’m sad that helps me feel better. I read online somewhere but if you smile when you think of happy things it will help you be happy even in times that you’re not very happy. So I hope that listening to even want to be sans can put a smile on someone’s face. Something I actually like about myself is that I enjoy listening to all genres of music, even country.

 I’m not too sure this is a blog post that I plan on promoting, or even publishing honestly because I’m kind of just writing this in my journal at the moment which sounds weird I know. I just wanna help people.  I feel like I’m rambling. I felt a weird sense of dread since I woke up this morning. I can’t imagine how people who were actually there must feel. Because I feel sick to my stomach when I look out my window and see and see where the person that did this thing did this thing.

I feel like Las Vegas is somehow a part of my family like a sibling or something. I can make fun of my city but you absolutely cannot. I love living here, I don’t feel that way until the day after 1 October. I didn’t  like living here because there was no sense of community, I moved around a lot so I struggle with having lasting friendships. But I’ll really admire the way we all came together in this time of tragedy. A lot of the music I plan on sharing do have some ties to Vegas, the city I finally feel like is my home. 

Earlier or year ago to this day I was scooting around on Facebook sharing on my favorite horror movies with my friends. Then I went out with my family I had a really good time. I left my phone at home, something I never do. I came home to so many texts and messages and just about every form of social media was flooded. Because people didn’t know where I was. I always think about that when I feel like I have no friends and I feel lonely. I hope no one else feels that way. It’s hard,because most of my friend ships only exist online, because  I do spend probably too much time online. I just want people to know that they’re never alone.  As cliché as that sounds.  So yeah here’s the music.

Cranes in The Sky- Solange
Vegas Lights- Panic! At The Disco
Rise Above - Reeve Carney
 I'm Your Man- Leonard Cohen  
Come Fly With Me- Frank Sinatra
Lights- Ellie GouldingAngels- The XXOnly The Young- Brandon Flowers
Light It Up- Luke Bryan
Most People Are Good- Luke Bryan 
As You Are- The Weeknd
Friends- Chase Atlantic
Anything by the queen Britney Spears
Feels Like Vegas- Tinashe
Work Song- Hozier
 Waste- Sigil
Mr. Brightside- The Killers
The entirety of Sam's Town- The Killers
Tennis Court- Lorde
Train Of Love- Johnny Cash
I Must Belong Somewhere- Bright Eyes
Mi Gente- J. Balvin
Radioactive- Imagine Dragons